I have had a bad couple of days and I’m not really sure why. I was almost late to my first meeting this morning and I couldn’t wait for it to be over so that I could come home. And then I had to be somewhere this afternoon and barely made it there and back. By mid-afternoon I had taken the max amount of Bentyl that I can take it a day. NOT GOOD. But I managed to get everything done and get home without dying.

My first meeting this morning was ok, despite how I was feeling. The leader is really nice but really, the meeting was rather boring and I didn’t learn anything I didn’t already know. She didn’t give information as much as ask for the people in the meeting to give suggestions which, well, honestly didn’t work work so well today. I am definitely going back (after all, I paid for a month) but I am hoping next week is a little better. I was hoping to come away inspired to be good about watching what I eat and excited about this life style change that I have going on and I wasn’t. Perhaps my expectations where too high???  Oh well, I’ll keep trying and if I don’t like this group I’ll find another. Maybe next week will be better if I manage to lose some weight.

On another note, I managed to spend a bit of money while I was there. Damn cookbooks! 

I am starving today. It doesn’t help that I am reading all the materials they give you (and yeah, the stuff I bought too). All these yummy looking things make my sweet tooth very excited! I am cooking my first meal in a box from the frozen section of the grocery store tonight so we’ll see how that goes. I actually found a couple of them that don’t have any ingredients that I know will make me sick. It’s hard to find some that I can eat really, they put milk and cheese into almost all of them. But the new fruit ones look good. So we’ll see. Of course, I won’t know it it bothers my stomach since it’s all messed up anyway. Here’s to hoping that it tastes good. Or at least ok. I’ll settle for edible really so I have something to fall back on for quick dinners if needed. Hubby eats them all the time and says they’re pretty good. But of course, he can have the ones with all the yummy cheese.

dinner update: It was gross. Of course. As most frozen things that say they are healthy are. What a waste of 7 points, I didn’t even eat it all! But it was quick and I had my fingers crossed that it would be good. oh well. Now I have to go and find something else. I could really use a big bowl of zero point veggie soup right now. But I won’t be able to make it until I go shoppingtomorrow. And dang it, now I have a stomach ache. argh!