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I was clicking around another IBS site, Life In A Bathroom, and I found a link to a real fun website (Thanks Nicole!). You need to have a sense of humor about toilets if you want to wander around the site, but while I was there I found this!! Too cool. I am going to build a house one of these days, and I think I may request one for those days I never seem to be able to leave the bathroom. I currently don’t have internet access in the bathroom, for some reason the wireless signal gets interupted back there. Oh yeah, I’ve had to wander back there with the lap top a time or two, but not lately. But I am sure I can get my husband to run a line back there to power this baby up. I may even let him borrow it once a year when I’m not using it.
I’m warning you now, this post is just one big whiny bitchy pitty party.
Read at your own risk.
I having a bad day. I am rather depressed and just feeling really down. I just want to go to work and live like a normal person. But nope, not me. I was awake in the middle of the night again with horrible cramps and diarrhea. I got up this morning and didn’t feel well but really wanted to go to work and tuff it out there. So I got dressed and left for work even though the belly was rumbling and I was wicked nauseated. I didn’t even make it out of my apartment building before I had to turn around and run to the bathroom. That was my fault, I admit. I tried to ignore the golden rule: Always listen to your gut.
So I am sitting on my couch feeling like a horrible person. I just want to curl up into a ball and cry. But that would just make my face hurt more, and with this cold it hurts enough. I had to call out of work at the time I was supposed to be there because that was as soon as I could get to the phone. I am sure my boss just loves me right now. And of course, just my luck, it is annual review time. What perfect timing. And even though I don’t plan to stay at this job much longer at all, I want to leave on a good note so anyone that calls for a reference will get good information. At this rate I’ll never get another job. It hasn’t been a good month and I am looking very unreliable and that just SUCKS. I am a good hard worker, but I have this damn issue that keeps messing it up. And I was already out once this week because my Kid was sick so it’s even worse (but that is different story for a different blog). Just one thing after another after another after another.
I need to find a job that has normal hours, 8 to 5. That will make things much better (the trick is to find it though!). I was never out this much at my last job. I had plenty of time to have a bad morning and then make it in on time for 8am (although I will admit there where some days that where close). And I wasn’t glued to my desk so it was ok if I had to be in the bathroom a lot on a particular day as long as I got the work done. But not at this job. All hell breaks loose if I leave for a minute. And I am often left alone in the office so I can’t really go to the bathroom when ever I need to. The other lady in the office is never out. All her kids are old enough to stay home on their own and she apparently has a super immune system and doesn’t get everything that seems to walk through the office door like I do. So it just makes it look even worse. The Hubby says we are just getting used to the New England germs but I don’t buy it. I just get sick too often. And yes, I take a daily vitamin. I’ve read (although I can’t remember where at the moment) that a lot of our immune system is in the digestive track. So I am screwed before I even get up in the morning. (Does anyone else get sick a lot or am I just strange??? )
So I am just a miserable mess today. Am I always going to be fighting this? Trying to make my body cooperate so I can be a productive, effective, reliable member of the work force? I am sure in 50 years, the fact that I was out today will not make or break anything, but it sure feels like a big deal right now.
I had to reschedule my appointment today. The agency interview will have to wait until my head does does not feel like it is going to explode painfully at any second. The Kid has shared a cold and it bites. This time around I am really enjoying the wicked cough that is hanging around with the sinus pressure.
I hate head colds. Who doesn’t? But there is the added fun of the addition of more mucus into an already mucus filled system. If a head cold lasts too long, it messes up the system. blah. I have my fingers crossed that this is a fast moving system.
Do any of you take probiotics? Which one? Do they help? I have been reading a lot if information about them, and I was wondering if anyone has had any success with using them. I am going to talk to my doctor about them at my next followup, he has never mentioned them. I have… issues I guess you could say, with taking unregulated products. You don’t really know what’s in them. But since I can’t eat good bacteria in the normal way (lactose intolerant = no yogurt!) I’m thinking it may be a good idea to look into them.
Thank you for any insight may have! 
Good and bad comments about probiotics are welcomed.
I’m job hunting. I have 2 degrees and am way overqualified for the dead end low paying job I have. Besides, I hate my job. So I am on the hunt.
It does not take 2 degrees however, to realize that job hunting sucks. It is so stress inducing – not a good thing for people with a stress aggravated condition. But the clock is ticking, I need to find a job in the next 2 months or we’re going to be in trouble. My current job is over at the end of June (yes, I knew that when I took it). Tick tock. Tick tock.
So I am spending my afternoons applying to anything remotely close to what I want and crossing my fingers that I will feel ok when I get an interview. I have one tomorrow, in a city I have never been to, and I am trying hard to stay calm. I can’t get all nervous or I’ll pay for it. I have a horrible sense of direction so I get to worry about getting lost. I have to remind myself that tomorrow is just with an agency, not an actual employer. It’s not a “real” interview, that helps calm be down. Probably not the best way to look at it, but hey, you do what you have to do. I am waiting to hear back from a job I really really really want. And that has me on pins and needles.
Last night sucked. So much so that I don’t even want to write about it. And lucky me, it has carried over till this morning. So the Hubby and the Kid are on the way to the store and I am sitting here all dressed with no where to go.
But it’s beautiful out, and it’s only 8:34 am so the day has plenty of time to improve.
However, I am cancelling lunch plans with our friends, I know I just won’t be up for that.
My belly is being weird. Crampy icky noisy rumbles that make me think I need to run to the bathroom in Fast Forward, and yet, when I get there – Nothing. Hence, Slow Fast Forward Mode. Or maybe Fast Forward Slow mode. Whichever it is, I guess it’s giving itself time to really build up.
Yippie.
At least we have already done what needed to be done today.
I was supposed to pick up the Kid yesterday from daycare. The Hubby had an appointment and the Kid had an appointment and I was supposed to be the child’s taxi. But I couldn’t. Hubby had to leave work early and bring the Kid home so I could come straight home from work because I felt wicked bad. I think that maybe I didn’t eat enough for lunch. Or my stomach just didn’t care that I had taken my Bentyl. Or maybe my stomach has just had enough of the peanut butter and jelly sandwhich’s I have had for lunch almost every day for weeks. I don’t know. What ever the reason, I was one bloated cramping nauseated mess. blah. I feel bad for the Hubby, because this happens more than I would like it to. I should be able to do something as simple as pick up my child from daycare with out worry. It’s so frustrating.
It is amazing what you will read when there is nothing else around. In a bathroom that I frequent often for extended periods of time (not my own) there is a book about outhouses. I have read it cover to cover more times that I care to admit and it is really rather funny (you’d have to read it, I am horrible at describing jokes. Besides, when I’m in that much pain, I’m sure my standards are much lower).
The book makes me very glad that I am alive now dealing with IBS and that I was not born fifty years earlier. I am thankful that the only thing I need to do with the JC Penny catalogue is read it. I am thankful that my toilet seat is firmly bolted to the floor and will not tip over. I am thankful for indoor plumbing in the middle of winter. And I am especially thankful my bathroom is not a “two seat-er model” where I would never have any privacy.
so wordpress.com has a spam filter. I had no idea. Recently a handful have been identified as spam and I haven’t seen them because I didn’t know to check them. So, if by chance you wrote a real comment and is it not showing please try to repost it. I have not denied any comments as of yet.
